Saturday, June 4, 2011

i am just NOT happy.

alhamdulillah...finally im 4th year UKM medical student. stlh berpenat lelah mengerah segala keringat akhirnya i pass my reseat posting. utk 4th year, my 1st posting is psych --> triad --> exam -->paeds -->ortho. syukur sbb hampir merapatkan jurang utk jd grad.

but im just not happy as others. actually not happy at all. happy 30% or maybe less. and the other 70% or more,,,im SAD.very very SAD. no words can describe how i felt.

org lain dpt result sume happy.
ak nangis dpt result. mcm mse ak tau ak pass ong n surgery. tp bkn la sbb aku hepy sgt2. tp sbb sumone who very close to me didnt make it.

bkn nk over, tp ak rasa tempias jugak.
thats y aku pon x smgt sgt nk nek 4th year. sumone yg u cari utk share everything xde. sumone yg akn temankan u bila u ssh sng xde. when u bored, he the one u seek.

hmm....xtau sbnrnya nk ckp apa. but hope he will be fine. really hope. Allah promises u somthing better..n Allah knows awk boleh trima. bkn dia sahaja, buat kawan2 yg lain jgak, especially yg study sesama mse kte reseat aritu, Allah dh tulis semuanya utk kte. HE knows the best.

n hope sgt Allah bagi aku kekuatan to continue my journey.sape2 yg kata ak over mcm ak yg *ai*, sory coz u r not the one who carry this burden. same goes with me actually. ak cme blh bg advice. tp batu tu bkn hempap ats kepala aku. sakit yg aku rasa x sehebat yg dia n korg rasa.

for those yg officially 4th year MS, jgn lalai plak. kna usaha lg. perjalanan kte pon mayb x semudah yg disangka. to remind me myself also.

berharap sgt2 biar kte semua blh grad. n jd HO --> MO-->registrar --> specialist --> consultant. insyaAllah aminnn...~~

2 comments:

  1. cik fun,c0ngrats!

    papep0n,d0akan tuk kejayaan kite sume bersame..h0pe sume dpt grad n jd d0c,xkesa cepat 0r lmbat :)

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  2. tq meirah...insyaAllah kte semua leh dpt MD UKM. :) meirah jgn putus asa k! ktorg aweys support korg. :) :)

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