korang ada terbau benda hangit x? rasa macam hangus je. dah hitam legam sbb tebakar. macam berada dalam microwave pon ada gak ni. pastu tambah la spice of india. jadi la "cikfun hot n spicy!!!"

can u imagine?? balik2 'keje' dgn letih penat tensyen banyak keje kena setel dgn cover bed plus cover patient, kuar dr hospital di bwh cahaya matahari yang terik....jeng2...somebody yg ko nk sgt jumpa bertukar jadi orang yg kalau boleh ko xnak jumpa pon petang tu. tbe2 rasa menyesal sbb balik masa tu. berbasa-basi btol la aku ni. just don want to hurt or blame anybody, hope so. huhu...those yg baca pon stress agaknya coz x paham aku tulis apa. but at least, some of my burden release. :( :( :(

hmm.....bila waktu2 mcm ni terigt lagu fevret 'tak selamanya selingkuh itu indah'. yes! i do trust but there still a little doubt. jahat ke if feeling this way? no, right??? actually i like to kept it myself, but i just can't. huhu...sorry...

syukur

alhamdulillah....
wlupun result tak sehebat dan segah orang lain ,masih ttp syukur. mungkin dan aku pasti bak ayat dalam blog farah ' Allah menjanjikan yang lebih baik'. terima je apa yang Dia bagi ngn hati terbuka. tu rezeki yang Dia bagi setimpal dgn usaha kita. sebagai pengajaran, jgn anggap sume perkara mudah dan ambil ringan. jgn terlalu letak harapan yg terlalu tinggi, coz ia akan mengecewakan. boleh berharap, tapi berpada-pada.

tipu la klu aku kata aku gembira dgn result aku. jauh kt sudut hati, sedih tu tetap ada. tapi kalau nk diikutkan perasaan, hanyutlah posting2 sem 2 ni...so, PERJUANGAN HARUS DITERUSKAN!!! for those yang doing well and pass, congratulation tapi jgn lalai. teruskan kejayaan korg n jgn lokek ilmu k. then utk those yg ada sangkut ckit2 tu, jgn terlalu down. g la dgr lagu DOWN. best! (hihi.. =.=)

all the best for our next 2 postings. may Allah bless us. insyaAllah amin..~

masam-masam manis

keychain ni beli masa kt bandung. setengah yang word true tu ada kt aku. yang lagi setengah word love g la cari ekh kt mne. nnt klu korg jumpa aku bagi hadiah. hihi...

ini gambar masa jalan-jalan kt KLCC dgn dia. well, dlm x pandai nak mengayat n x pandai nak berlawak, kadang2 dia ni blh tahan jiwang gak. gambar ni nmpk cam xde pape, tapi ada pape bg aku. jgn la fokus kt bangunan yg menggunung tinggi tu. sila fokus dekat 2 pokok yang cantik lagi berseri-seri serta indah dipandang tu.

mereka berdua ni antara bear kesayangan aku. previous entry pon ak pnh letak gmbr ni. selalu wat teman aku tidur. yela, karang kalau bear x digunakan dikara cam perhiasan plak. kan dh haram hukumnya. x masuk malaikat dlm rumah. :)

actually, ni antara perkara penting yang mengingatkan aku kat dia. pejam celik pejam celik dah 2 tahun ktorg 'kawan' wlupun sbnrnya kawan dh lme. thank you sbb sggup bersabar dgn kerenah n perangai org yg huru hara dan porak peranda ni. n sentiasa percaya kat org. thank you for everything. i will always love you~~ :) :) :)

bye tg.karang

dh habis posting tg.karang. slmt tggal~~ sayonara dunia hiburan.

salam tg.karang

ak xde benda pon nk cter. cume JKM quite best setakat ni. bak kata dr.fazilah JKM xde bedside teaching.xde bedside kena mrh. sempoi shj. lecture pon simple. x heavy n x perlu difahamkan smpi pecah kepala.

hmm....x sangka dh 2 hari tg.karang. td dh bg grup utk survey n intervention program. wow!! tbe2 rasa x sabar nk g wat survey. mmg la diorang kata ada yg kena reject bagai. xpe, mse kt ward dlu pon slalu je kena reject. smbil wat survey leh jln2 kampung. tp hope kampung yg btol2 kampung la. dh lama x rasa suasana kampung. hehe~~~~

smlm tido lmbt. bkn setadi. tp tgk film hindustan. SALAM NAMASTE. saya suka saif ali khan. lalalalalalalalala my dil goes hmmm~~~

ok2. cikfun jgn lupa nnt jkm akn bz ngn report n assignment.plus kna bce medicine utk osce, OBA, blabla...jgn berangan byk2. igt mak ngn abah kt uma. daa frenz...pape pon saya x sabar nk blik cuti raya,,,,

cerita berkarat

mcm klaka.tp ak nk crite ltk number.nmpk cam kemas.mujur x ikut format UKM. :)

1. tahun ni 1st day puasa kt uma. 3 tahun 1st day puasa kt bandung.sadis..dh 3 tahun x dgr pengumuman puasa kt tv. ...setelah diperkenankan oleh duli......puasa jatuh tanggal....seronok oooo dgr...hihi...
2. seminggu b4 1st posting habis MARA msukkn duit.tq.so shopping x hengat dunia. duit pon tgl singgit2 je.mujur puasa.kurang ckit kuar duit makan.
3. jumaat b4 cuti aritu short case. dpt lower limb ngn CVS. actually simple. tp its hard to hear a murmur.
4. cuti kt uma tv rosak plak.n mak ayah ak agk bz utk g anta tv baiki. tp xpe, adik2 aku je dh wat aku hepy. rndu kt diorg sume. :) :) :)
5. g bli mcm2 mse cuti. ngn mak aku.ngn adik2 aku. smpi habis duit. n ak g wat spek mata. coz penglihatan dh mula kabur. kurang mkn carrot kot. :)
6. g 1 kedai. then ada auntie tu kata muka ak cam umor 14. ada org kata sje nk bodek.tp ak still rasa tu ikhlas. hahahahahaha perasan.
7. then makcik n pakcik ak kata ak obviously dh kurus. wow!! maksudnya ak gemok dulu. hihi...tp ak suka.
8. balik prisma 15hb. smpi2 je jmpe dia.g bukak pose sme. ni yg aku hot. ak g buka kt pizza. ak last person yg dpt seat.pastu fullhouse. ak kan suka bercakap. mse mkn soup, ak borak2 la ngn dia smbil suap soup. dtg pompuan @ pekerja kt ctu, dia g hangkat mangkuk soup ak. mmg mangkok hayun btol. soup tu ada lg kot. dgn sudu tu msih ada kt tgn aku. mmg terbantut selera aku. rasa nk hangin je. ak mg dh cukup hot. mujur la dia yg dpn ak ni penyabar. ak plak terpaksa ikut sabar. rasa nk hayun je sudu tu kat budak tu. manner pon xde. at least ckp la nk amek ke.tanya dh siap makan ke. awat hang x angkat je piza, air, spageti ke sume yg ada ats meja. bengang btol la aku. huh.
   
9. arini dh start JKM. dh knl dh dr.rohaizat tu yg mne. tp ak pny mentor dr.rozhan. ak dpt team kuala selangor. n x sabar nk mkn seafood jeram.haha.
10. rabu ni g tg.karang. going to miss cheras n some people here especially him n farahain. tp korg pon skrg tgh dlm killer posting which are inMed n O&G, so goodluck!
    
11. tu je la nk cerita. duit dh dpt, broadband ttp blm beli. still gne yak piper. hehe..tq piper.
12. bye. salam ramadhan.
    

love letter.

saya dah lama tengok dia.
tapi dia x pernah nampak saya.

saya sentiasa nak dia dekat dengan saya.
tapi dia selalu jauh dari saya.

saya nk dia teman saya setiap masa.
tapi dia sntiasa dengan kawan2 dia.

saya nak capai dia.
tapi dia sntiasa jauh.

saya nak peluk dia.
tapi x boleh.

saya selalu nak menjerit2 supaya dia tau saya nak dia.
tp lidah saya kelu.

tapi akhirnya..
perasaan saya selama ni rupanya berbalas.
saya dah dapat dia....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!















p/s : cayang, TQ... :)

i really miss him 2. :(

When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind

When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of
questions,
She is wondering how long you will be
around

When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after a
few seconds,
She is not at all fine

When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying

When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever

When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention

When a GIRL sms's u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once

When a GIRL says I love you,
She means it

When a GIRL says that she can't live
without you,
She has made up her mind that you are
her future

When a GIRL says "i miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more
than that.




http://www.boardofwisdom.com/default.asp?start=21&topic=1006

i really miss him. :(

"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, "thats her"....

ward dan clinic

salam
rasanya ni post pertama ak post since aku start posting internal medicine for my 3rd year clinical year. :P :p
overall??? hmm....speechless.no comment.
xtau la nk describe apa.mayb sbb bru pas 3 hari mggu kedua, ak msih nk jinak2 ngn dunia hospital ni.tp ak dpt rasa changes dr 1st week ke 2nd week la.
mse mggu pertama, nk g ward pon mls.nk clerk patient pon nk x nk.dok menumpang org lain je. but now, ak dh leh tegur patient dulu utk nx permission utk diclerk. well, bila dh try sekali n succeed, mula la cam ketagih.hihi...best gak berbual2 ngn patient yg cooperate la.prnh gak ak kna reject ngn patient sbb patient x larat. ada patient plak yg x patience.bkn patient tu mrh2 ke apa, tp patient tu blm smpat tanya dh jawab mcm2.tp xpela, dgr je la.syok gak. sbb patient mostly dh berumur, byk nasihat diorg bagi. :) :)

hmm....next story ni mayb unethical ckit.tp we r in learning process. nk amek blood patient igt sng ke? nk cucuk jarum pny la pyh.utk menembusi kulit tgn kita ni memerlukan kekuatan fizikal utk tolak jarum msuk, dan kekuatan mentally utk tgk patient sakit sbb kna cucuk. :D well,1st practise sesama ktorg.x dpt pon. pastu rasa agk down la. tbe2 rasa cam x layak jd doktor la apa la. but then, 2nd time wat, dpt la amek drh. WOW!!!!!!! rasa bersemangat tbe2. trus rasa cam nk cucuk sume org. hihi..

tapi yg x bestnya.....
bila logbook x dpt lg.dh observe some procedures.dh g workshop 2 kali. dh g teaching several times. but still x dpt nk sign pape pon. d latest news dgr psl logbook, pejabat kata bru print coverpage. ak mle rasa cam nk mencarut. bengang la weyh...dh 2 mggu posting. mcm x wat keje je.print je pon ssh ke...??? ayoyo~~ ni sesi luahkan perasaan. sana cni sma aja. huh~~ kna bersabar la camni..

1 more thing!!! n the most important ONE!
MAJLIS AMANAH RAKYAT @ MARA bila nk masukkan pinjaman student2 bwh tajaan anda ni? kasihanilah kami yg x berapa nk berduit ni. tensi la cmni. haiya!!~!!!!~~!!!!!!! cmni kami nk blaja klu duit xde..?? (alasan semata2) hopefully, duit masuk real SOON.

ok la,setakat ni je kot nk cter. nk cter psl patient xleh. its private n confidential. hehe..daa.

myself

ada org kata aku garang. actually most of people who knew me kata aku garang. and ada gak org complaint ak garang even dgn pakwe sndri. bkn ak x prnh nk berubah. tapi ni la diri aku. bkn suka2 hati nk mrh. i've tried to control my temper. but it juz didn't work. huh~~ kdg2 ak benci ngn sikap ak cmni. tp xpela, sape nk kwn ngn aku kna prepare mental n fizikal. huhi. for him, sory for scolding u too much (if any and sure there is). sory.sory.sory.

tua or matured?

mggu mesra dh habis. within that week, a lot of new people i knew. but still can't remember their name except for certain people. hee~~ n of course la, diorg tau ak bdk twinning UKM-UNPAD. n of course again, they know that i am older than them. bila kenal2 tu ada yg tny nk pggil akak ke?? OMG!!! tidak!!! sungguh ku terasa diri ini begitu tua. terasa berlaku inferiority complex d ctu. dh tu je nk bgtw. bye~~ hahahahaha~

sakit rumah

otak skrg tgh serabut. xtau nk story kt sape. hope ada la somebody yg baca post ni. bajet cam dpt release tension la konon. skrg bz ngn orientasi. actually x la bz sgt. tp ak rasa prisma ngn ppukm mcm jauh. wlupun jln kaki x smpi 15 minit. n ak rasa dh lama sgt duduk kt KL ni wlupun bru smggu. adaptation tu new place, new environment, new people going to kill me!! i hate the ice-breaking thing. nama saya farhana. awak?? huhu~~ tired wif that dialogue. tp xpe, pasni lg byk nama ak kna igt. ward round, clinic lg.
n for all that, i hope that there is always people behind to support me. n i do really222 hope so. as usual la, HOMESICK!!! mcm nk balik uma pon ada. mood study pon blm smpi lg. on off sntiasa. tp xpe, i'm trying to be tougher and stronger. insyaAllah.
xtau la knape, since register kt cni mcm sumthing wrong happened wif me. culture shock? x la gak. dunno y la...n hope it will end real soon.
dgn duit yg xde ni, xleh nk lepak2 or shoppping or men bowling even karaoke utk lps tensyen. n sbb uma skrg ni kt apartment yg kiri kanan atas bwh ada manusia, xleh nk jerit2 nyanyi lagu smbil pakai earphone. huhu~ n ak rasa skrg ak sgt tensyen.!! mayb cuma ak je kot yg tau sbb apa...huhu again~~
skrg ni sdg bertawakal. apa2 posting pon ak terima je. coz nk x nk kte ak lalui gak posting tu. n hope yg terbaik utk aku dan kawan2 aku. pass every exam. amin~~

yank? yang? sayang?

yank by wali. lagu pembukaan g karaoke smlm. lagu dia sempoi. n ak ulang2 dlm bilik smpi hafal. wali yg aku maksudkan ni bukan wali yg nk nikahkan tu plak tau. ni wali band indonesia. quite famous. lagu2 dia sblm2 ni pon byk yg sdp. contohnya dik.

byk lg band2 indonesia yg best. yg paling ak minat setakat ni KERISPATIH. aku rasa setiap lagu dia sedap. klu dgr lagu2 kt jatos or any others supermarket or shopping mall, ak mst leh detect yg tu lagu kerispatih. mmg best la. klu korg nk dgr g cari srndiri ye lagu2 diorg. tp icak kata vocalist dia kna tgkp sbb amek narkoba cause stress sbb dia tau yg dia akn dibuang dr kerispatih. huh~~ sgguh kecewa. well, pasni mst kerispatih dh x sebest yg skrg. antra lgu yg aku suka aku harus jujur, tak lekang oleh waktu, demi cinta, etc.

ni la KERISPATIH
(source :http://twin88.files.wordpress.com/2009/03/kerispatih.jpg)

mse mula2 dok cni ak menyampah gak ngn artis2 cni. sbb terlalu byk artis. kt tepi2 jalan byk yg ngamen. utk sape2 yg xtau, ngamen tu mcm seorg atau sekumpulan pemuda pemudi ,muda dan tua ,lelaki atau perempuan yg menggunakan kebolehan diorg menyanyi either merdu or x utk nyanyi n mintak duit...klu korg g bandung naik bas or angkot, 4 sure akn ada org2 yg ngamen tu. ak blh je bg, tp dgn syarat tertentu. priority kpd usia. klu dak2 kecik ak bg x kisah la suara sdp ke x. klu dh remaja2 or dewasa yg umur sebaya aku, suara sedap je dpt. hehe...

tp kdg2 kesian tgk yg ngamen. dak2 kecik yg sebaya adik laki pon bernyanyi dgn gitar kecik. ak pernah nangis tgk dak tu. mse tu ak dlm damri (nama bas) nk g bandung. xtau npe. sayu hati aku tgk. sbb ak bayangkan klu adik ak terpaksa cari rezki sndri sedang sepatutnya umur2 cmtu g sekolah utk blaja. korg mayb xde perasaan sbb x nmpk sndri yg mata korg. or aku je yg touching sndri. :(

aku blh accept klu ada lelaki2 dewasa yg ngamen. TAPI.............
bila banci ngamen. ee...nausea, vomiting, headache, increase ICP sume pon blh. bukan nk kutuk, tp sbg perempuan yg bertudung rasa terhina ngn banci2 ni. mne taknya, dh la 'tukar jantina', siap pakai tudung plak tu. dgn badan yg besar mcm kayu balak, kaki tangan besar cam tiang letrik, blh plak pakai cam pompuan then nyanyi2. x leh blah bila diorg ni nyanyi lgu nasyid. disgusting. ak x terniat nk mengutuk, tp kutuk gak la. yg ada siap meraba dak2 lelaki. ak bkn fitnah coz ada member ak kna raba. eeewww~~~ disgusting!!!

well, tu bru psl ngamen. byk lg perkara2 yg 'menarik' or 'menyedihkan' kt indonesia ni. wlupun ramai org kata malaysia dan indonesia mempunyai budaya yg sama, but still kte adalah 2 negara yg berbeza. all for now~~~

fakulti kedokteran,UNPAD.

bila kenang2 balik kisah2 ak kt bandung ni, rasa sayu plak hati nk tinggalkan. wlu cmne truk pon keadaan org cni, demo sne sini.ngamen.yg mintak sedekah. still,kt BANDUNG atau lebih specific KAMPUS UNPAD JATINANGOR ni la tmpt ak menuntut ilmu. 3 tahun ak mengabdikan diri dgn jadual FK yg berterabur mcm debu2 kna tiup angin. still, FK la tmpt ak belajar. utk kawan2 yg masih berjuang kt FK, UNPAD ni teruskanlah perjuangan korg. perjalanan kita masih jauh. n klu korg rasa FK xde 1 team management yg bagus, pekata korg manage masa korg sendiri utk blaja.

utk dosen2 yg dah ajar aku, THANK YOU...

hari2 yang memenatkan...but finally, i had a really big smile.

salam.
perjuangku di FK UNPAD, jatinangor bandung akhirnya tamat. for about 3 years berhempas pulas (ye ke??) study, akhirnya ak brjaya gak habiskan theory kt cni. bkn nk riak atau berbangga, jmpe rasa happy akhirnya ak dpt result yg boleh dibanggakan. bkn la smpi dpt 4.0, but still above 3.0. n for a medical student, nk dpt 3.0 tu blh stress yg kronik wooo~~

10/04/2010
ramai member2 dh start blik msia. cuti ngn family diorg kt uma. housemate ak 2 org dh bli. ak blik lmbt lg. sje ngada nk amek paper. kot2 dpt nekkan pointer at least kalahkan dia. cukupla..hihi..sorry la ye kamu, jgn mrh..

skrg ni internet dh xde kt uma. x amek dah. so xleh nk update slalu. n now, sdg berharap ada la junior2 nk bli peti ais, tong gas, mesin basuh, tilam, etc yg ada kt uma tu.klu dpt jual. leh shopping sakan kot..hihi..

ok la. ak dh mls nk taip. n b4 lpe, bru tau dila ada blog. congrates utk kamu. :)
n goodluck for ur coming exam. daa readers~~~

dedicated to all TWP07/08

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
And we would get so excitedand we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
From whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

structural oral case analysis @ SOCA

weyh weyh BPH @ benign prostatic hyperplasia...dgn struggle ak hapal psl prostate, urethra, bladder blabla...

nur farhana bt mahat...
nama ak dah kena pggil. gigil weyh, tercabut skru lutut aku. ok, nme ak no.5 so duduk kt paling blkg skali. teteh pon bg soalan. A 6 years old girl..blabla...teka apa otak aku pikir? knp BPH dlm dak kecik? dan perempuan plak tu. pompuan mne ada prostate. x caya? korg g cek. this girl has been diagnose as having ACUTE DIARRHEA WITH MILD TO MODERATE DEHYDRATION DUE TO SHIGELLA DYSENTRY. tidak!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

baik2 ak hapal prostate pny anat, tuptup kna ckp psl large intestine.
baik2 ak hapal urination, tuptup case defecation. tidak!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

5 minit yg pertama ak sgt blank. cam nk tutup balik pen. nk give up. nk nangis. nk g bilik quarantine bce lg skali. tp mne la blh kan. gila ke apa. well, tarik nafas dlm2. dan aku terigt kt someone yg slalu kata, "jgn stress2, nnt x msuk apa pon." ak pon deep and rapid breathing @ Kusmaul breathing, ak pon tulis la case analysis. blabla...

cukup 30 minit msuk bilik dr.najwa ngn dr.kusman. bentang la. blablabla...hentam keromo je. dot!!!!!!!! cukup 20 minit. tggu kt luar bilik, smntra doktor tggu mrkh. mse ni ak pikir cukupla klu lulus. then, dpt la _ _. alhamdulillah. syukur. wlupun x dpt A, but at least ak pass wlupn presentation teruk. huhu...

tutup cter soca. g tutup mata tido plak. nk rehat smpi esok. b4 kembali struggle utk osce slasa nnt. hope dpt pass sume stesen dgn A. amin..~~

A+T+T+I+T+U+D+E = 100

salam muhasabah diri.... :( :( :(
ari isnin arity dpt tau roughly psl result sem 5 aritu. doc kata ada bbrpa students dpt 4.0. and average IPK above 3.7. wow!! wonderful result. but still dunno la individual result cmne. but the main point post kali ni bkn psl result. but about TWINNING 07/08 's MANNER.
dak2 kita xde manner. NO MANNER!!! mula2 ak dpt tau doctor ckp cmtu, ak berang gak la. ak tau ak bkn la student yg hebat, mantap, sntiasa dpt best student utk sem. tp at least i still hv respect to all doctors k.
and bila td ada discussion, baru sedar kot...rupanya perangai ktorg mmg teruk. bkn nk memburukkan batch. tp kena sedar la. doctor UKM pn kata, nnt kt msia the most important value is ATTITUDE. pandai la mcm mne pon, klu perangai buruk, sorry la yer. mintak maap byk2. nah tgk antara list2 yg aku dpt :

1. x bce skill lab manual b4 start skill lab
2. x wat flip chart utk tutor
3. dtg kelas lmbt (lbih dr 15 minit)
4. x dpt jwb soalan
5. x wat li
6. tido dlm kelas
7. x respek member yg tgh prsent li
8. g kantin masa skill lab berjalan
9. borak2 kt blkg bila ada org present assignment
10. x wat assignment
    
11. etc. klu ada spe2 nk tmbh sila la yer.

ak tau bkn sume student twp cmni. ada je yg ok, actually bukan ada, but mostly mmg elok je perangai. maybe sbb ada setitik dua nila, tu yg rosak susu sebelanga. bukan mengutuk, tp memperingatkan sesama kita. ak pon pernah je wat antara prkara kt ats tu. so sama2 la kita berubah. nk balik msia dh ni, jgn la smpi dosen2 igt kte sbg student yg bermasalah. ok??? any comment?? suggestion?? huh....

love is not only about feeling

"mcm mne klu 1 hari nnt org ada sakit or accident, then smpi kena amputation??? dia tinggalkan org x?"
'ak cuma mmpu telan air liur yg penuh ngn enzyme ni.'

can u imagine what answer will come out from my mouth?? huh..that's a big meaningful question. and my answer might be, "yes, i will leave u." i dont think im going to answer, "no, i will never leave u till the end of my breath."

not bcoz im not love him. not bcoz i don't care about him. but love also need me to think about myself. i cannot spend my whole day to take care of him. coz i know, if i stay with him, i hv no gut to leave him alone doing those daily living stuff by himself. but, then i'm not sure i can forget him. mayb u all that read this entry will say that i'm selfish, watsoeva. it just me. and if that thing happen to me which is i'm the one who will be amputated or etc, i will let him go. coz, one day i will know that the "love" is already change into "sympathy". don want that happened. it will hurt u so muchhhhh then.

tapi aku harap dan aku berdoa yg this thing takkan berlaku kt aku. wlupun ak xtau apa yg Allah dh tulis utk masa depan aku, ak cuma mampu berdoa dan harap yang terbaik utk kami.

p/s : mencintai seseorang tak bermakna memiliki dirinya

paper yg bangang!

xde story pon nk cter. just nk post entry baru. cme nk bgtw semua org aku dh hbs exam. wlupun dua2 paper susah, tp tawakal je. dh try my best. 1st paper susah sbb ak x bce. but at least aku still igt n leh ikot logik akal. push2, perah2 otak msih leh berputar2 cari jwpn. wlupun CHOP psl health promotion xde slide. 2nd paper mmg bengang tahap bangang. ada plak kuar soalan anesthetic. klu 1 je xpe, ni dkt 10 soalan kot psl bnda bodoh tu. xde prnh dgr pon dlm tutorial, xde dlm lecture pon. klu ak ni kaki carut, mmg dh kena carut dh doktor2 yg wat soalan. tp xpe, ak sabar lh, then BHP pn sama. lecture psl ethic utk pediatric and adult GI disease, n psl techno2 dlm GI. tp kluar psl ntah teori manusia2 mne ntah. counselling apa bnda ntah. bangang2222!!! ak mmg tensyen. pas exam patyut relax, kurang dh beban, tp ni dh mcm double burden plak. huhu....sedih sbb soalan mmg xleh nk jawab. we are going to be a GP only. GENERAL PRACTITIONER, not an ANESTHETIST...nnt klu ak nk jd specialist anesthetic, ntah kuar soalan apa la agaknya. berpikir berpikir.. chow~~

woman, with or without her...man should decide.

If you kiss her, you are not a gentleman
If you don't, you are not a man

If you praise her, she thinks you are lying
If you don't, you are good for nothing

If you agree to all her likes, you are a wimp
If you don't, you are not understanding

If you visit her often, she thinks it is boring
If you don't, she accuses you of double-crossing

If you are well dressed, she says you are a playboy
If you don't, you are a dull boy

If you are jealous, she says it's bad
If you don't, she thinks you do not love her

If you are a minute late, she complains it's hard to wait
If you visit another man, you're not putting in 'quality time'

If you fail to help her in crossing the street, you lack ethics
If you do, she thinks it's just one of men's tactics for seduction

If you stare at another woman, she accuses you of flirting
If she is stared by other men, she says that they are just admiring!

If you talk, she wants you to listen
If you listen, she wants you to talk


in SHORT:
So simple, yet so complex
So weak, yet so powerful
So confusing, yet so desirable

can't live with them..
can't live without them …


source: http://www.englishbaby.com/forum/AskEnglish/thread/310514

movie fever

salam.ni baru balik dr JATOS. td g mkn paparon. sedapnya chicken mushroom soup. sedap!!! td dok angkot sorg2. on d way nk smpi jatos, terngiang2 grey's anatomy. td tgk season 6A. episod 1 pon x hbs lg. pape pon, ak nk follow smle cter tu. aku stop kt season 4. season 5 x tgk. nnt pas exam nk tgk la. nk list down la movie apa yg aku tgk n suka.

1. HOUSE
skrg dh season 6. ada org kata aku suka cter ni sbb ak bdk medik. maybe tu first reason. sbb lain, ak suka the way dr.gregory house solve those case. with his own style. with his "stone head". dgn doctor2 under diagnostic department yg bijak. mula2 ak x ske sbb dia xde ethic. tp rules is made to be broken ok. so, x kisah la. as long as he can solve the case, then the patient satisfied, those patient will never sue him. i love dr.gregory HOUSE!!

2.GOSSIP GIRL
skrg dh seaseon 3. ni mmg xde kaitan dgn life ak sbg medical student. tp ada kaitan dgn dunia sbnr. how poor people have been tretaed by the rich. how love influence their life. social life in teenage. but i don like the multiple partners. they can get STD or STI easily ok. a love CHUCK BASS and BLAIR. both are very very very very very very sweet couple. i really love them.

3.VAMPIRE'S DIARIES
skrg bru season 1. ak baru je follow cter ni. then cter ni pun still baru. kenapa suka cter ni? sbb vampire dia x putih mcm edward cullen. STEFAN SALVATOR is HOT ok. he have 6 packs yg superb. teruknya aku. haha..n cter ni wat ak rasa best la. heroin pon cute . witch dlm cter ni pon comel. can't wait till next episode.

4.PRISON BREAK
skrg season 4 klu x silap. i'm not sure sbb ak stuck kt season 2. hihi..nnt pas exam kot start nk follow smle. why i love this movie? first of course la hero ensem. his name is MICHAEL SCOFIELD .i love all parts of this story. i like the way he use his little brain to make a biggggggg plan. woman always love bad people. ye ke?? haha. he so macho u know?? sgt creative. sgt bijakkkkkkk...!!!

5.GREY'S ANATOMY
now dah season 6. ak stop kt season 4. diz another medical story. intern's life. resident's life. a lot of obstacle. mistakes. loves. tp cter ni ada yg x elok gak. klu dr.house suka break rules, doctor2 dlm grey's anat suka sex. hmm...tapi, tgk ni amek yg baik je ok. i love DR.SHEPERD.

6. HEROES
cter ni ak TERfollow sbb terikut dia. syok gak tgk cter ni. tapi totally ridiculous kot. x logik. tp klu ak blh pilih nk jd apa dlm watak2 cter ni, i choose to be a "mind reader". ak xnk jd claire bennet yg blh heal. xnk jd peter petrelli yg leh absorb kuasa org lain. dlm cter ni, ak suka NATHAN PETRELLI. x ensem, tapi xtau npe aku suka.

7. CSI (x kisah miami ke, new york, vegas ke)
i love forensic!!. i love investigate. hihi..sbb tu ak suka. aku suka cmne nk solve problem. nk kena pk logic. pk sume kebarangkalian yg ada. wow!! mantap...yg ni x follow. just tgk kt tv je. xpe2, nnt ak beli sume season. wait n see ok.

ok2.skrg dh dekat kol 9 WIB. so nk study PHOP plak. jom~~

PANGANDARAN BEACH - - - - DAY 2

salam.

seawal jam 8 pg (krg lbh la tu) g cek out. time ni dh siap2 kemas bilik, kemas baju sume. pack msuk dlm beg ltk dlm keta. nk balik. TAPI!!!

sblm balik, g green canyon dulu. rugi klu dh smpi pangandaran ni x g nek boat then capture gmbr. tp malang ckit nsb ktorg sbb pagi tu hujan. so air jd keruh. klu x hijau je. but still ok. nek boat ke green canyon tu 5 org/boat. harga 75000/boat. kat cni, korg leh je main air. tp air terlalu deras smpi korg kena berpaut pd tali. then korg kna byr kot. tapi xtau bper. ak teringin gak nk men. tp sbb dh cun2 pakai jeans, tudung belit2 tercekik leher, mcm xnak la. len kali la yer.

pastu, men flying fox. cuma ak, isma, cici, amin ngn hadi je yg main. syudud x sehat. harga 15000rp/org. tapi rugi sbb xde gmbr. menarik coz ak dh lme x main.

then, bergerak ke batu hiu. kt cni korg akn jumpa batu artificial yg berbentuk hiu atau nme lain ikan yu. kt cni, ktorg jln2 je. amek gmbr. minum air kelapa. hirup udara yg x tau segar ke x. mkn rojak buah. dan etc.


pastu lebih kurang jam 2, bergerak pulang ke jatinangor. ooopss~~ silap, g bandung dulu. singgah kt IP utk dinner. mkn kt rice bowl. total out x igt brape. kami amek paket 6 org. coz syudud x sehat, dia x selera nk mkn.
then balik. odw balik, singgah pertamina jap.g semayang jamak. karang klu dh smpi uma xleh dh nk jamak. smpai uma dlm kol 11 malam. balik dgn x sempat nk kemas. g bilik air, basuh2 muka terus tido.

zzzZZzZzzz~~~

PANGANDARAN BEACH - - - - DAY 1

salam.

dipendekkan cerita. 28-29 dec 2009 kemarin, kami ber'7 (aku, isma, cici, amin, farah, syudud, hadi) menghabiskan duit bercuti di pantai pangandaran, ciamis. bergerak seawal 2 pagi 28/12 (sepatutnya jam 12 mlm, tp salsabilla mcm tahi, so keta lmbt 2 jam). time ni ak dh nk start hangin dh. tp still ok. n sampai kt mustika ratu (sumthng like chalet) dalam waktu yang dijangkakan. lebih kurang jam 7.30pg. sampai je kt ctu g cek-in. 2 bilik kelas ekonomi. 1 bilik muat 3 org. (utk kami yg pompuan muat 4 org.) harga rp200k/bilik. agak lumayan. tp xde AC.juz fan. tp tu dh cukup sejuk kot. oleh sbb hujan, ktorg stay dlm uma dulu. mkn breakfast yg dimasak sndri dr jatinangor. ada bihun gorng, kuey tiaw grg, roti sardin gulung, puding jagung, puding marble. kenyang~~

pas mkn lepak2.ujan stop lbh krg kol 9.30. then ,men air x hengat dunia. main ombak ala2 surfing (board surf to 5ooorp). g pasir puteh nek boat(klu x silap la nama dia).ktorg amek yg 200k/boat (jln jauh ckit) , then snokelling. utk sewa barang2 snokeling tu 20k tanpa kaki katak.

pastu, naik beca dlm 5 minit (10000rp/beca) g pantai pangandaran timur. kt ctu la ktorg men banana boat. harga 50k/org. ktorg men dgn 3 kali jatuh dlm air. time ni sume rg cuak2. takut x timbul. tapi hakikatnya, sume org tbe2 reti berenang.

then, ktorg balik bilik g amek duit.sbb x cukup duit nk men donut. harga normal 150k/donut. tp sbb td dh men banana boat. dptla diskaun 125k/donut. 1 donut nek 2 org ok.

mlm!!!!!!g mkn seafood. ikan, ketam, sotong, udang, lobster, plus air2 minum yg ktorg pesan. total 505000rp. divide by 7, plus minus 72000rp/org. sungguh lumayan. kenyang perot.

pastu makan durian sat. 2 biji 25000rp. then, g shopping2 ckit.bli souvenir utk diri sndri. ak dpt selai baju. hihi..

pastu?? g nek beskal lak. sewa 10000k/hour/beskal. pusing la mne pon yg korg nk.
then apa lagi?? g balik bilik tido la.

zzzz..~~~

2009...year of freedom

salam muhibah~
arini dh tahun baru. azam tahun baru?? hmm..as usual la, azam tahun ni adalah utk mencapai azam tahun lepas. azam tahun lepas apa?? ha...azam tahun lepas adalah azam tahun lepasnya yg x tercapai. begitulah seterusnya... :P

actually bkn xde azam baru. azam setiap tahun pn sama. nk jadi seorang anak yg baik, muslimah yg solihah, pelajar yg rajin dan dedikasi. wow!! xnak blaja last minute. xnk asyik burn solat. xnk wat jahat. krenya azam every year adalah utk jadi seorg yg lbh optimis. optimis tu apa? ak men sebut je. hihi..well, every person pn mst ada azam yg baik2. yg positif. tapi xtau la klu ada sape2 yg berazam nk jd perompak ke, pencuri ke, drug addict ke. who knows. tapi hopefully xdela yer.

2009 adalah tahun di mana umur aku bertambah jd 21. apa org kata, 21 thun tu dh dpt kunci kebebasan. hmm, betul kot.tp jgn terlalu bebas. (peringatan utk diri sndri)
sempena tahun 2009 yg bakal melabuhkan tirai, jom kenang2 balik la apa yg kte dh buat n dh capai n apa2 la. mana yg buruk, kte perbaiki. mana yg baik, kte kekalkan.