.MEMORY.

.EITHER THEY WERE HAPPY OR FULL OF SORROW.

.THEY WERE PART OF YOUR LIFE.

aigoo!!

prove me right and they were wrong.
it's more than enough.

miss the old him.

i miss him.as who he is before.that's all.fullstop.

may i borrow ur shoulder???

sudden onset of sadness d/t multiple causes.
hmm.....xtau la.tp cam nak nangis je....really i cant focus on my study at all. thought x lama lg ak ada major depressive disorder mcm ni. ak mcm dh fulfill semua criteria je. huh....

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm................................................
plz wake up honey!

worst day in the 1st week in 4th year

pagi2 tersentap ble tgk jam kol 8.57 pagi. mcm mne ni????????!!!!!!!!!!!!! ak ada lecture kol 9 pagi. arghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! stress...nk nangis. klu ak mandi. or at least gosok gigi n basuh muka.then siap2 konfem lmbat smpi. jauh tu nk g department. pasrah. akhirnya ak decide xnk g. sedih....smlm ak dh bce utk lecture arini. ada yg x phm igt nk dgr doctor lecture cmne. sedih. terkilan. mcm nk hentak2 kepala kt dinding. ak x pnh kot nk ponteng lecture. x kisah la ak ready ke x, malas ke rajin ke. akn aku gagahkan gak diri ni utk g. tp aini mmg worst day dlm 1st week psychiatry posting. tertekan. mula bangun smpi kol 10 lbih ak xleh nk duduk ngn aman kt uma. bimbang la x g lecture. tu la farhana, len kali ble pagi2 dh bgun jgn la tdo smle. ni gne selimut babi sbb tu x bgun. sedih sgt2...........

dh la plak....tbe2 paip wat hal. tersumbat lagi. kena kemas lagi ngn bau yg x sedap. eeeeee~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! rasa klu ada mnusia kt depan aku mmg dh kna maki.

pastu hujan. alamak.perut dh lapar.nk turun bli mknn tp sgt mls coz hujan agak2 lebat. mkn megi je....

then kol 2.30 g lecture utk forensik posting. dh la pilih tempat duduk bwh econ. sejuk x hengat. introduction plak akak yg gedik n mayb ada bipolar disorder yg bagi intro. rimas gler dengar.
then kol 4++ bru stat lecture btol. kol 6.45 kot habis. perut ak dh la lapar nk mati. nk masuk angin dah.

rasa cam busy sgt je 4th year. forensik at least observe 10 n ~4h/postmorterm. adoi~~!! SSM lg. mcm x terkawal je.

adoi~~~ smoga ak dpt wat ngn baik utk 4th year ni. igt farhana nk baiki pointer. nk jd org paling last dipanggil utk grad ke? xnak kan???? jadi blaja la leklok.

blurrrrr....!!!

kol 8 g dept psychiatry. ok as usual la, 1st day mesti start dgn briefing.

dpt jadual for the whole 8 weeks. tapi!! x phm 1 habuk pon. until now. malas nk phm. harap2 ketua akn sentiasa chain msj utk igtkan aku.

act, i'm not in study mood. masih blur2. ngn buku selai pon tarak. otak mmg dh diformat semula pas reseat aritu. xtau la plak ble nk isi. ak dh spacekan 500GB utk 4th year. cukup ke x ekh? x cukup ak tmbh external. hihi....

ya Allah.bagilah aku kekuatan dan kerajinan.sesungguhnya kemalasan telah menghantui diri ini....tabahlah..~~~

ok.td pnjm buku kt library dh.so no more excusessss utk x study. rajinkanlah diri anda ye farhana ye. sekian~~~

i am just NOT happy.

alhamdulillah...finally im 4th year UKM medical student. stlh berpenat lelah mengerah segala keringat akhirnya i pass my reseat posting. utk 4th year, my 1st posting is psych --> triad --> exam -->paeds -->ortho. syukur sbb hampir merapatkan jurang utk jd grad.

but im just not happy as others. actually not happy at all. happy 30% or maybe less. and the other 70% or more,,,im SAD.very very SAD. no words can describe how i felt.

org lain dpt result sume happy.
ak nangis dpt result. mcm mse ak tau ak pass ong n surgery. tp bkn la sbb aku hepy sgt2. tp sbb sumone who very close to me didnt make it.

bkn nk over, tp ak rasa tempias jugak.
thats y aku pon x smgt sgt nk nek 4th year. sumone yg u cari utk share everything xde. sumone yg akn temankan u bila u ssh sng xde. when u bored, he the one u seek.

hmm....xtau sbnrnya nk ckp apa. but hope he will be fine. really hope. Allah promises u somthing better..n Allah knows awk boleh trima. bkn dia sahaja, buat kawan2 yg lain jgak, especially yg study sesama mse kte reseat aritu, Allah dh tulis semuanya utk kte. HE knows the best.

n hope sgt Allah bagi aku kekuatan to continue my journey.sape2 yg kata ak over mcm ak yg *ai*, sory coz u r not the one who carry this burden. same goes with me actually. ak cme blh bg advice. tp batu tu bkn hempap ats kepala aku. sakit yg aku rasa x sehebat yg dia n korg rasa.

for those yg officially 4th year MS, jgn lalai plak. kna usaha lg. perjalanan kte pon mayb x semudah yg disangka. to remind me myself also.

berharap sgt2 biar kte semua blh grad. n jd HO --> MO-->registrar --> specialist --> consultant. insyaAllah aminnn...~~

age is not just number

umur tu cuma sekadar angka.
wah.......ak sokong sgt ayat tu.
tapi....
bila dh terkena kt hidung sndri, mak aih...
terasa babe...
nk kena cari org lagi tua ni..
nk cari yg sebaya tp tua beberapa bulan pon payah gak..
dh aku lahir bulan 2..nk kena cari yg bulan 1 plak..
dush2..susah..
sudah2..
jgn nk bermonolog..
nnt tensyen sndri.

cinta dua benua

dlm Islam pon dah kata. nk kawen tu cri yg sekufu. meaning setaraf. bkn la nnt jd cinta dua darjat la. ibu mertuaku la.

huh..dush2..
makin lama makin terasa ada gap la plak kan. saya pon xkenal awak sgt. awak pon x kenal saya sgt. wlupun dh bertahun2 kenal. hmm...
again, xtau nk ckp apa. tp dlm dilema la plak skrg ni. huhuhuhu...tolong2..!! spe nk dgr cter aku? huhu...



source : other's blog. :p

pre-? post-?or prolonged MS?

MS = menstrual syndrome

hmm...dulu ak ada prolonged MS. smpi tercalon jd mrs.emo kt bndung. tp x menang. ada org len yg continuously MS.

makin lama MS aku dh x teruk. biasa2 saje. tp ada org len yg makin teruk. atau sbnrnya ak je yg bru perasan ada org len yg prolonged MS.

ak sbnrnya xtau nk ckp apa. cme jgn nk slahkan hormone semata2. klu kte leh handle, xla smpi prolonged MS. kesian org2 kt sekeliling kita. (sory bee)

hmm...stop talking nonsense.
kecewa. kata nk g bowling. nk g karok. tp x jd pon. adoi~~!! dush2..

yes!! i was addicted.

ni sume pengaruh dak2 uma aku. biasa la umur meningkat ni, pengaruh rakan sebaya mmg bahaya gler. x kukuh iman, mmg terjebak la. huhu...dan mmg dh terjebak pon.

act, this show started on 2009. but i only watch this show in early 2011. hehe...:)
they are ridiculous. i enjoyed watching them and make me laugh non-stop.

my fevret, sunny, sunkyu, the chicken catcher. she really like someone from the countryside.

KIM TAE WOO
the only guy in this show. actually not. there are 2 other men. handsome and his voice nice. i love his 'love rain'.

KIM TAE WOO + YURI 'SNSD'
look like a couple. blessed them. :) :) :) dunno y, just like them to be together. another pic of them below.

note: sape2 yg ada episode depa yg setrusnya, pass la kt aku eh. :)

merong terbaik!

thanks syg belanja tgk merong mahawangsa. seriously i enjoyed watching that movie. ada part sedih, gelak2 sakan, serius. sume la.


terbaik la bro2 sekalian. wlupun ada ckit2 part yg cam x logik, biasa la kan. but great job and well done... (dgn harapan KRU baca blog aku)...x rugi sesen pon tgk cter ni. tabik spring la..n merong pon mantap. superb!! apa lg ekh nk puji?? nk tlg promote ni. korg g la tgk eh.

utk director dan pereka filem yg lain, biarla buat cerita 10 tahun sekali yg penting hasilnya TERBAEK!!!! daripada hasilkan filem tiap2 bulan tp hasilnya???? lu ada otak, lu pikir la sendiri...

strength

emotion instability

once again, my heart broke into pieces...~~~

dream comes true...

my first external HD. akan ku jaga dgn baik. cewahhh mewahhh...
habis duitku melayang2...tp aku puas hati!!!

bercita-cita nk beli yg warna hijau. tp u all pon tau klu nk wrna2 ni mahal ckit. jd beli yg xde kaler2 la...putih is nice what....

cita-cita saya

ada 1 lg benda aku nk beli. iaitu external hard disc. aku dh 15 ratus kali g survey harga since kt bandung. smpi dh kt msia x beli2 jugak. jadi aku berniat la nk beli pas blik dr melaka ni. harap2 kali ni niat aku tercapai. laptop alu pon dh full memory. merah menyala je kan. nk yg bper ratus gig ni? atau nk yg tera? pening nk pk ni..lala..

cokolat celup..celup celup..:)

ni akak saya bg. sekalian dgn broadband. hadiah befday yg ke-18. hehe....

new bb from my sis!!

bb is not for blackberry tp broadband. hehe...thnk kakakku sbb sponsor. leh dpt anugerah kakak penyayang ni. lala...

berbelog

sgt rndu dgn www.secretous.blogspot.com

waaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sy ingin berbelog dgn jayanya. tp apakan daya internet xde. tggu aku ada BB (bkn blackberry maupun bluberry tp broadband). masa tu siap la klu ada hal yg ak x suka. konfem jd entry.sbb skrg pon dh terkumpul kt minda aku yg tepu ni dgn benda2 karut aku nk ckp.

sgt rindu dgn blog sndri wlupon xde follower. jd cepat2 la follow aku.