proud of him

we officially finish with SSM. Thank God....

n grup ak x mng pon. n ak x kisah. haha...but quite jeles la ngn grup yg mng. tp nk wat cmne, research diorg xnk gempak2 gler plak kan. x kisah la. yg penting ktorg dh buat yg terbaek utk SSM posting ni.

ak jd pengiring VIP mse muasrm tu. n involve jgak la dlm pembikinan gimik persembahan tu. n its great!!!!

ada DR from Indon jd judges which are specialty in statistic @ CRP (what we called in bandung)
n ada few teman2 from UNPAD. happy to see them presenting their study. kesian jugak la sbb ada yg bersusah payah present in English. tp bila dpt bertutur dlm bahasa mereka, nah!! lancar terus...~~ give u all big applause!!!! yeah~~~

after finish, we talked with them. share. n i miss BANDUNG's LIFE DAMN MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!

tp ada 1 perkara yg buat ak ter'touching' jgak la..

Student D : Doc, bisa ga doc kalu kita buat kayak gini di UNPAD"?" (he means this event, MUASRM)

Dr.R: jgn tanya ama doc. tanya dulu ama diri kamu. bisa ga kamu bikin event kayak gini??
Dr.R : kamu presentasi ga mahu nanggalin begnya. masih keanakan kayaknya.
Dr.R : kamu lihat gak gimana mereka presentasi tadi? (presenter oral + poster), mereka itu kelihatan professional. (smbil buat thumbs up!)

ak tersentap. bukan sbb apa. kalau aku la yg ada kt tmpat dia, ak xkan tanya soalan mcm tu. paling2 pon ak akn x sabar nk hbis. n pastu nk jln2 around KL. tp dia mmg seorg pemimpin yg bercita2 tinggi. salute sama lho.

dia ada cita2 nk buat event yg selayaknya dikatakan GRAND klu buat kt UNPAD. tp pada aku?? MUASRM ni xdela grand segrand2nya sbb dh terlalu byk kali attend majlis2 mcm ni.

wow!! ak mcm nk nangis jgak la sbb dia tu ketua angkatan 2007 mse kt BDO. utk mereka sbb ada ketua angkatan yg berpikiran mcm tu n FRIENDLY!!!!

my dear friend, ak doakan sgt2 korg boleh buat event seumpama ini...insyaAllah, dgn izinNya, klu niat korg mmg baik, pasti akn jadi jugak..aminn~~

after a long time has passed

when she know that one day (which she would never not know when), her prince will going back to his original place. she kept holding his hand as she afraid that he will disappear anytime in a blink.

demn!!!
she proposed him to marry her. although she always know that he will leave her no matter what.

n she dont ever get the chance to say GOODBYE~~

denial.denial.denial.

peace~

semangat22!!!
saya sgt semangat nk study utk final year.
hope everything will go smoothly.
saya sudah sgt x sabar nk habis blaja.
nak keje.
nak kawen.
nak jd ibu.
sekian~~~

:(

knpe kadang2 ada org x igt apa yg dia dh buat dulu ekh?
u do the same thing as what i was doing now.
no. WE! US!

thank you to Allah..

alhamdulillah..
tamat sudah exam 4th year..
hope result nnt ak pass...
xnk reseat...
bg ak pluang cuti lama2 plak...

apapun redha je...
ALLAH knows best.

syukur sbb spnjg study week n exam, ak dikurniakan tubuh badan yg sihat..
xde sakit2...
except for pening2 kepala ckit...

tp, trima kasih ALLAH sbb tak mem'blank'kan otakku masa jwb exam...
alhamdulillah~~

love~

im very happy for u my dear...


hope u will be happy after this moment...

wonderworld.

ttbe terberangan..
nk bangun pagi kol 5..
mandi2 siap2 nk semayang subuh jemaah ngn husband.
pastu siapkan breakfast utk husband.
then baca paper kt beranda rumah tau isu semasa dunia.
pastu masak utk lunch plak.
ptg2 g mall, window shopping.tgk wyg.
pastu dinner kt restoran seafood.
mkn udang yg besar tu. apa nme dia lpe plak..
mlm kna tdo awal sbb esoknya ari isnin.
kena keje plak.
ok2.
jom smbung study.
wakakakah~~

dwibahasa.

dulu...
mse jwb spm...
kan ada dwibahasa...
1 malay, 1 english...
of coz la i choose malay...
x pnh t'pk la nk baca soalan yg english...

sekarang...
UNIbahasa...
every single words in english...

tgh2 jwb soalan KFQ paeds td...
ttbe rasa bangga dgn diri sndri...
bkn sbb dpt jwb soalan...
tp x sangka ak blh fhm kehendak soalan yg dlm english tu...
(((except for PPD, even in malay, i dont think will understand what they want...)))

tu yg senyum sndri kt depan paper...
x sangka...
mmg x sangka...

say alhamdulillah...
walaupon dr tadika smpi menengah xde gne english...
yet still i know english...
wlupun family ak ckp melayu je kt uma...
siap campur jawa.banjar lg. huahua~~

ok2...adios~~
salam.

insyaAllah...~

finish 2 paper already. gap 1 day holiday b4 osce ortho and paeds.
tawakal to Allah.
bila berserah pd Allah, bru ak rasa tenang.
what past is past.
whether i can pass or not, Allah decide evrything.
if i pass both posting n also PPD, alhamdulillah...
if not (hopefully not), maybe i need to study more.
to overcome my weakness and become a very competent doctor.

flash back!!!~~~~
during 3rd year clinical, anxiety level 95%...
now, drop almost 50%..
xtau knape.
probably ak dh tau teknik nk jwb soalan.
or ak byk baca.
or ak mmg dh biasa ngn dunia klinikal ni.
masyaAllah...bukan nak riak.
bukan mkna ak yakin semua jwpn aku btol.
tp mayb dh desensitization~~~

n actually most important!!!!
is TAWAKAL...
bila anda percaya Allah tu yg akn bagi rezki
anda pasti akan berasa tenang.
anda dah berusaha.
sama ada anda layak atau tidak utk berjaya,
berdoa~~~

istighfar..~

tgh2 study...sempat jugak jengah facebook.
nmpk gmbr artis kawen ngn mechanical engineering student.
they look good together.
tot u know who i was talking about.

ttbe rse cemburu.
sbb yela,,,,sama cantik sama padan.
dua2 pon pandai.

ak pon berangan...
bestnya dpt kawen ngn org camtu.
ekonomi dh stabil.
ensem pon blh tahan.

ttbe tersentap!!
knpe nk cuba capai apa yang org lain capai?
kenapa nk cuba dapat apa yg org lain dpt?

astaghfirullah....
jauhkanlah perasaan cemburu yg tak berpatutan mcm ni...
Allah dan tuliskan jodoh aku.
yg perlu aku buat sekarang?? doa...
semoga Allah temukan aku dgn seorang lelaki yg terbaik utk diri aku.
yang boleh membimbing aku ke jalan yg DIA redhai...
yg boleh membimbing bakal anak2 kami kelak menuju jalan yg diredhai Allah..
yg boleh mengimamkan setiap solatku...
smoga doa aku dimakbulkan Allah...

im still young.

1 week late...

but im still happy...
love u!!!
much!!
tq for every single moment.

tu muka tgh happy dpt hadiah. huahua~~

so i'll remember u every second. is it? n waiting for u until that time arrived...insyaAllah...

friends~~ please pray for our happiness...

.......

pretending that nothing was happened.
it is the best way.

:)

yang terpahit jua termanis
semuanya bagiku terindah
ku ingati buat selama-selamanya
di sini jua memori tercipta
walau seketika terjalin kasih kita
mungkin di sini kita kan terpisah
kenangan bersama tiada ku lupa

-memori tercipta-

23

too many things i wanna do at this moment.
too many dreams i wanna achieve in the future.

but what is actually im doing at this moment?
wasting time......my specialty..

i hate that im going to become 1 year older after today.
huh!!

berDATING.

td g kuar jap. gozip2 dgn kwn lama (lama sgt......)))). terasa di bale padjadjaran plak. ntah apa yg ktorg cter pon xtau. tapi best. gelak2 smpi vessel kt muka dilate. shopping brg dapur (???) smbil bergelak ketawa sgt fun. mmg lpe exam nk dkat. ok la. xnk cter lebih2. tp sory terjatuhkan cake ko. hehe...

statement.

y do i feel uncomfortable with that simple and straightforward statement?
hmm....
coz i think too much??
what is actually im thinking of?
he do not trust me?
or his family does not accept me?
or actually im the one who r not ready yet?
OR??????
................................................................
surprisingly i get confused.

rm

troublesome with him.
missing without him.
is this love?





wahahahahahahaha~~~!!!!

thought i hurt him a lot.sorry~~~

why
i
cant
say
NO????

stress dowh!!!!

kiri nampak org tu.

kanan nampak org ni.

i really cant endure it!

MS vs ms

jgn poyo sgt boleh?
u were a medical student once.
baru Master Student tapi ckp dh mcm kerek.
ngn ktorg mmg blh ckp cam hebat.
bila specialist tanya, ketar2 gak nk jawab.
dh jawab siap slh lg.
klu korg x bajet terer.
mst ktorg x gelakkan klu korg kna mrh ngn specialist.
tp klu ngn ktorg ckp mcm registrar padahal bru 1st year master.
konfem kena gelak sakan.
sory to say la dr.
ktorg respect korg amek master.
yela, dh ktorg degree pon x lps lg.
but ONCE AGAIN!
sila jangan poyo. terima kasih.

greenlight

those traffic light.
has 3 different colours.
green. yellow. red.

graduated.
work.
bank accounts has at least 5 digits number not including .00
most important!
fully prepared to become a wife and daughter-in-law.

marriage life

when u read the title its like i am married.
no! i'm still single.

just when seeing people around me change their title to Puan, i do respect them.
bcoz they already prepare to take responsibility to be a wife.

but!
as usual.
not all women can carry those burden@RESPONSIBILITY!!!!
walaupon dr segi pakaian, u kena jaga.
u also carry ur husband's pride.
anytime. any place.

u'r so different before and after u married.
amazingly surprised!!!!!!

i hope i'm not going to be like that after i married 1 day.

naughty

lama x stalk org yg tahap stalk cipannnnnzi.
dulu suka usyar dak2 laki.
of course la. kang usyar pompuan pelik la plak.
ak pny taste kena la lelaki yg x bper cerah tp xla gelap sgt.
rmbut bkn yg terpacak2 tanpa pakai gel.
muka comel2 je n cam kacak ckit.
dulu klu stalk tahap curi2 tau no.fon n DOB.
pastu ble result exam kluar, g usyar result dia.
n tgk IC utk tau dia asal mne.
pastu usyar dia ada awek ke blm.
klu dh ada konfem!!! awek dia kena kutuk.
pastu cam sedih gler sbb mamat tu dh ada org lain.
tp still! couple je blm kawen pon.harhar~~
pastu sggup g kafe pada mse yg sama mamat tu suka lepak.
n control ayu dgn bajet gler cam mamat tu akn notice.
even cmtu pon still bahagia.
pastu balik bilik cter kt roommate smbil blushing sndri.
mula stalk2 ni since upper form n klimaks kt matriks.
after that xtvt stalk2 ni dh kurang.
coz since fly g indon x ramai sgt choice.
n of course biasanya budak2 fizik yg dipilih.
skrg pon ada jgak la stalk2.
tp biasa2 sudah.
karang selingkuh la plak.
tp xla smpi tahap sehari x tgk x boleh.
haih~~ ttbe rindu zaman remaja2 dulu.
hmm...skrg dh adult. kena blaja utk setia plak.
haih~~ bosan....hehehehehhehehehehhehehe
selekeh gler cter benda ni.
insaf weyh!!!

...

nak story.tp mcm buka pekung di dada.
xnak story.tp rasa nk meletup je chest ni.
Allah knows better.NO! Allah knows BEST!
suddenly rasa cam xde kawan kat dunia ni.
salah! actually ada.
tapi cuma x caya dia akan simpan rahsia kalau ak share cter.
sedihnya rasa!!!